Still Waiting.....

Still in the ICU here. We haven't heard for sure if Scott's going to be allowed on the helicopter with Kai, but someone did come in and ask his weight, so maybe their considering it? Thank you, Lord! The waiting is pretty much driving me crazy.

Kai continues to be under sedation and although he is still struggling with his breathing, he's been catching up on much needed sleep.

I wanted to share a quick story about this little guy. When we first arrived at the hospital, we were told our stay would be about 2 days. He whined a bit about staying and I told him, "Kai, we're only here for a couple of days and then we go home and Mama will not leave you at all." He was OK with that.

Yesterday afternoon he asked, "We go home today?" I said, "No, baby. I'm sorry. We can't go home today."

This morning, when he first awoke he looked at me and said, "Mama today is day three. We go home today?" My heart is breaking that he is keeping track of the days. I told him that we were leaving this hospital today, but that we had to go to another one. He cried a bit.'

For those of you that don't know Kai. Kai is all. things. boy. He is pure energy and loves his bugs, trucks, cars and planes. So, later in the day, we had this conversation.

ME: Kai, you've been such a good boy! We have a BIG, BIG surprise for you?

KAI: (His eyes beaming with joy.) Is it a monster truck?

ME: Nope. Something even cooler!!!

KAI: What, Mama? (in a very excited tone)

ME: You've been such a good boy that you get to go on a REAL helicopter ride!!! (I waited for shrieks of joy to fill the room. Nothing.)

KAI: (A bit apprehensive knowing something was not right). A real helicopter? In the air?

ME: Yes! Isn't that exciting?

KAI: Are you and Daddy going to ride, too?

ME: (heart breaking again) I can't go baby because Mama gets sick when she rides helicopters. I don't know if Daddy could go, because he may be too big and this special ride is for special boys that behave really, really good while they're in the hospital.

KAI: Okay Mama. (Not too much excitement)


So, that was my preliminary preparation for his travel arrangement. Sadly, he will be strapped into a stretcher and not looking out a window. I continue to pray that Scott be allowed to ride with him.

Keep an eye on the TWITTER feature on the sidebar, because I won't be able to post these long posts soon, but I will try and hop on there to say we are on our way. Right now, I'm trying hard to ignore the huge butterflies churning in my stomach and keep myself occupied. Hence the reason I am rambling.

Scott right now is on the phone with the Ronald McDonald house and they are trying to get us a room over there. Please Lord let this go through, because as you all know from my previous prayer request, we were back then figuring out how to come up with $3,000 for ear tubes. I don't even want to think about what the medical costs are going to be now. with our lame HMO. I am trying hard to focus on my little man and believing that God will take care of us.

Lastly, Anna Grace is really struggling with all of this. The last two phone calls, she's remained on the phone listening, but will not speak to me. She's angry, confused and scared. A lot is going on at once. Your prayers are being felt. I can't thank you enough.

God bless.