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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Quick Update

This is one very scared Mama who can't feel Jesus around her, and that scares me even more. I just had a church friend come by and pray with us. I feel like I'm falling apart. As of 6 a.m. this morning, after a night of tears (both Kai's and mine) and watching my little boy's chest literally concave as he gasped for breath, we were told by the doctors that they felt the best plan of action was to airlift him by rescue helicopter to Miami Children's Hospital, two hours away. There would be no room on the helicopter for us, so Scott and I would have to drive.

I called Scott hysterically to get to the hospital. About 20 minutes later, the doctor came in and said that he wanted to give Kai a little more time on the huge dosage of steroids, helium mixed with oxygen, and triple doses of Benadryl to see if he could improve without sending him. Twenty minutes after that, he came back yet again saying he was going to begin the process to get him to Miami.

By the time Scott arrived, I've been without sleep for almost 30 hours and developed a migraine that had me literally running into the bathroom the minute Scott walked through the ICU door, so that I could throw up. I was able to sleep about an hour and feel better.

The 3rd new doctor "in charge" came to see us. He contradicted everything the first doctor said and felt that there is no need to send Kai to Miami. He feels that they can treat him here and then he could go there with us, by car, after he has been stabilized. I said to him that will all due respect he was completely contradicting the previous doctor, he responded by saying that he understood my feelings, but that he had to stick by his decision.

We need huge prayers for wisdom for these doctors, for guidance so that we can decide on what God wants us to do. God knows the outcome of this nightmare and I've allowed my eyes to not focus on Jesus and feel like I'm drowning.

I can't stand seeing my baby boy in such respiratory distress, hooked up to monitors, machines and breathing apparatuses. About 4 a.m. last night, I felt like grabbing him and just running away with him.

PLEASE, dear friends, continue praying.....for Kai, for the doctors and for strength for Scott and I to get through this.

Many hugs to all of you being sent with tear-filled eyes as I read your comments and emails.


33 comments :

He And Me + 3 said...

Stunt Man and I just prayed for Kai....may you feel the presence of the Lord Jehovah Rafa all around you and your precious son.

Amy - AKA - TigerMommie said...

Hold on, dear, hold on.....It will be ok, it really will. I can assure you that you are surrounded by angels, so have faith........Sending prayers your way.....

Rachel said...

Praying for Kai and for everyone!

Julie said...

"May the Lord bless you and keep you. May He shine upon your face and be gracious to you; May the Lord show you His favor and give you peace."
Numbers 6 : 24-26
Praying for Kai and your entire family.

Amy said...

Praying fervently and specifically, sweet friend, for all of you. I'm so sorry, O'. You know to call me at anytime. If there's anything I can do, I'm just a phone call away.
{{{Big Hugs}}}

Love you,
Ame

Jill said...

Ohilda!! You KNOW in your heart that God will care for KAI!! When we are weak..HE IS STRONG dear friend! Focus on Jesus and know HE loves Kai even more than you and Scott! OH! How I hate to hear the suffering of sweet Kai...I pray that AS I TYPE this he is getting relief and that the doctors will have a CLEAR focus of how to help your boy!
HUGS and more HUGS! AND many prayers for all of you.
Jill

Leslie Jackson said...

God is with you! Just remember that His name Emmanuel means "God With Us". Just keep saying His name...He is there! He has your little man in His arms!

I can only imagine that I'd be just as panicked an sleep deprived as you in the same situation. Just breathe deeply and let the breath of God come into you and your son!

My prayers are with you!

AlyAbox said...

Ohilda,

Just because you cannot "feel" Jesus right now doesn't mean that He isn't there. He is with you, and has you and your precious Kai in His hands.
I am praying for you my friend.

Precious Jesus, please be with Ohilda in her fear. Help her to know without a doubt that you are with her, and that you are with Kai also.
Be with Kai as he is struggling to breathe and comfort him. Help the doctors to come into agreement about what is best for little Kai. Hold him in your strong arms while he is weak.
We love you Lord, and we praise you for your faithfulness.
In your name, Amen.

Hang in there Ohilda. Your bloggie friends are praying for you.
Love,
Alycia

The Princess's Mommy said...

Ohilda!
We are praying and praying!!
Love,
Monica

Jill said...

Oh Ohilda, you just brought me to tears. May God surround you with love, peace, and guidance. My heart is with you my friend.
Hugs(()), Jill

Mom Of Many said...

Ohilda,
I am so sorry.

Dear Father, Thank you for being always faithful. Thank you that when we are weak you are still strong. Thank you for giving Ohilda and Scott wisdom far behind human reasoning. Thank you for giving the doctors wisdom. Thank you for being Jehovah Rapha. Thank you that your faithfulness reaches to the skies and that we have seen your faithfulness for generations. Please continue to show your faithfulness, your healing power and your love to Kai, Ohilda, Scott and the rest of the kids.

We struggle Lord in our humaness when are kids are so sick. Thank you that your word says you will keep us in perfect peace when our heart and mind is stayed on you. Please flood the ICU and Ohilda and Scott and Kai with your peace.

We love you Lord and we rejoice that you are known as the Miracle-working, Mountain-moving, Awe-inspiring, Gasp-giving God! Show your power! You deserve our praise!

In Jesus Name we pray, Amen

Much love and continued prayers from Colorado,
Linny

sara said...

Ohilda, even though you can not feel God, you KNOW he is with you. You KNOW your God...he is the I AM, he is EL ROI and he IS with you!!!

Praying for Kai, for wisdom for the docs and for you and Scott.

Love you!

Timmy's Girl said...

Ohilda,

I am sorry I am just reading your prayer request, but the Lord's timing is perfect and I will be lifting up this little soldier of the Lord!!

On bended knee for Kai and his Mama...NOW!!!
xoxo, Veronica in CA

waiting4Isabella said...

Munny,

Hang tight, it's in these storms that we are stronger in faith. Even though you can't see right now because you are caught in the storm as much as Kai is, The God we serve is the one who calms the wind and the sea. There will be calmness soon REAL SOON. Our precious Lord is holding Kai in his arms and our mother Mary has her mantle wrapped around him.

At 3:00pm sharp, mom and I will be praying a Divine Mercy Chaplet for all of you especially your lil man.

JUST REMEMBER ALL WILL BE WELL, I PROMISE !!!! KEEP YOUR EYES, MIND, HEART AND SOUL FOCUSED ON HIM AND HIM ALONE.

PEACE my beautiful sister, I love you.

Michelle said...

Prayers are on the way. Hang in there, sweetheart!

Angel said...

Praying for Peace that Passes ALL understanding and guidance for everyone involved in your sweet boy's care-
Angel
www.blessedwithfour.blogspot.com

Tami said...

Ohilda,

You must be so scared. I pray you start to feel His loving arms around you....carrying you through this. "He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart" Isaiah 40:11

He is there! He WILL get you through this, and He's with your little boy "He is not far from each of us" Acts17:27

You are NOT alone. "I will not leave you" Gen.28:15

Remember...be strong in Him."When I'm afraid I put my trust in you" Psalm 56:3

Sending big hugs to you all! Tami

Anonymous said...

Praying ((((((O)))))) I am so sorry, I know you are scared. I will pray for complete healing and for peace for Momma and Daddy, and of course wisdom and unity with the doctors. It is very frightening when doctors seem to be on opposite ends of the spectrum.
> Love you all and wishing I could be there to help. Tonya Bramblett

Patricia/NYC said...

Ohilda...I just checked in with you to find your last 2 posts...I have just prayed for ALL involved & will continue to pray. Hold on to your faith, my friend...it WILL get you through...& even though you can't feel His presence right now, He IS WITH YOU...ALWAYS!!!
HUGS, my friend!!
Patricia

Tammy said...

Ohilda,

I am praying for Kai and the whole family. Praying also for the doctors to help sweet Kai.

((((HUGS))))
Tamm7

Sherri said...

I just sent you an email.

I'm praying fervently.

Waitingfaithfully said...

Oh sweet friend, I'm crying tears for you here in Texas. . .

Father God,

Please invade Kai's room with Your peace right now. Please regulate Kai's breathing Lord, give him easy breaths and take away the strain. Lord, give the doctors wisdom in this situation. Wrap Your mighty arms around Ohilda, let her know that you are with her, and that you know her desperation. Thank you Father that when we are afraid, You are our HOPE. We ask that You heal this precious baby in Jesus name. Amen

“When my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the Rock that is higher than I.” - Psalm 61:2

Praying, praying, praying.

Love you,

Tina

Terynn said...

I, to am alarmed and praying fervently for you to not only FEEL god there with you, but to see His presence made strong in improvement in Kai's condition, this very hour.

Lord God, do not hide Your face from Ohilda. She is a frightened child who needs to feel her Papa's arms around her. She needs to hear her Papa's voice, whispering in her ear that He is here now...it is all right.

We pray for this kindness, not as a sign of weakness of faith, but as a sign of child-like faith and need. No parent hides from their child in the time of the child's distress; how much more compassionate and ever-present are You in Your perfect love toward Your children?

Thank you, Father for your compassion and love and strength and faithfulness to Ohilda and Kai and Scott. We praise Your holy name ad confess our complete dependence on You in this. We ask in Jesus' name...Amen.

The Ferrill's said...

Lord Jesus, wash over this family with your peace and grace and mercy....breathe a breath of fresh air to them....let them know it is YOU. We need you Jesus. We know you hear our cry on behalf of your little one. We love you and praise you for you are holy, righteous, sovereign, perfect, beautiful, and our best friend. We trust you Jesus.

Marian said...

Kai is firmly in our hearts and prayers! He is loved immensely and his Father knows what he needs. We are also praying for his doctors to know what needs to be done and to make the best decisions.

(((((Hugs))))

Holly said...

Ohilda,
I had no idea what was going on.

Father, You hold our lives in the palm of Your hand and You are completely trustworthy.
I come before you now, in Jesus' name, to ask for Your healing touch over little Kai, Lord.
I pray that Your presence would be made known to that little boy, that even in His sleep, He would be comforted by Your presence and that You would also minister to His Mama and Baba as they wait for Your healing to come to their little boy. I thank you that Your word is true and that You have told us that there is power in believers standing together in prayer. We know You will answer.
I ask You to provide for every need that arises and I ask that You will use this to be glorified, for faith to be increased, for the enemy's head to be CRUSHED and I pray specifically that NO WEAPON formed against this family will prosper! I pray that as the enemy comes against them again and again with different tactics, that he would NEVER be victorious even when it feels that way temporarily. I pray that Your protection would encompass this family as a shield about them and that Your divine favor would be poured out on them. I pray for supernatural wisdom for all medical staff working for Kai...may they be in one accord with wisdom from You.
I pray that Kai will come home soon....healthy and happy and that you would watch over the children at home and encourage their hearts.
In Jesus' name, Amen.

Marjorie (Molly) Smith said...

Ohilda,
My prayers are being sent to Heaven on the wings of Angels, for only Our Father knows the future. I am asking him to be with you and your whole family and to show his great love.
Peace and Love be with you.
Molly

Charlliesweb said...

Praying for you and yours Ohilda!!! You've helped me focus myself back on God, I know you're scared but your faith will turn you back the right way.

Dear Lord, please watch over this family. Please hold Kai and Ohilda so close they can almost feel your arms around them. Please give the doctors wisdom to follow through with YOUR plans in a timely manner.

Please give them peace in their hearts and help them to remember how strong and amazing you are.

Amen

Charlotte

waiting4Isabella said...

Hey munny,

just writing to let you know that GOD is SOOOO good. I just finished praying a divine mercy chaplet for Kai, you and scott at 8:30 and when I finished, I prayed and spoke to GOD and then I picked up HIS WORD and the very first thing I read was coming from John 14: And this is what it read: "DON'T LET YOUR HEARTS BE TROUBLED, TRUST IN GOD, AND TRUST ALSO IN ME".

How wonderful that we can turn over our storms and battles for our savior to fight them for us. Remember ALL WILL BE WELL. Love you and hope you have a SUPER NIGHT !!! Give Kai a big smooch from his AYI.

Timmy's Girl said...

Ohilda, just wanted you to know I posted a prayer request for you and Kai on my blog...the Word of God says that where there are 2 or more gathered, he is in the midst. xoxo

Ruth said...

Praying, Praying, Praying!!!

day by day said...

Ohilda! Oh, my friend!!! I am soooo sorry! Know I am praying for your sweet boy and for you!!!! I will keep checking back to see if there is any change.

Remember...you may have taken your eyes off of Jesus for a short while...but He has never once taken His eyes off of you. Hang in there! He is right by your side!

love you!

La Familia Garcia said...

Praying for your Kai and your family.

"Fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10

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