"Once our eyes are opened, we cannot pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act." Proverbs 24:12

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Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Turning a marathon into a sprint!

God is good! I am humbled that he continues to use me as His vessel to reach out to others. I came home tonight after a huge celebration (I'll post about that later) with the kids to find 5 (!!!) emails from friends and a couple of strangers telling me that my last post was directed towards THEM! Please remember that I am only a tool. God is the orchestrator and with a thankful heart I give Him the glory and honor for anyone that is ever touched by any words I write.

Now, time to make some room for something I really want to vent/share about. Those of you that know me, know that I am a type A personality. I feel like I'm now a woman on a mission. And Scott? Well, I think he feels like smacking me! Heh! Right about now, you must be asking yourself, "What the hec is she babbling about now?"

Do you have any idea how hard it is for me to get the green light, first from God, and then from my husband, to bring home another little one and NOT be able to. UGH!!!!

Yeah, yeah. I know I wrote all about Daddy having a plan, about His timing being perfect (and I TRULY believe that with all my heart), but man, oh man! This is killing me. I now spend every free second (hence my reason for being so lame about returning emails....so sorry!!!) just gazing into the beautiful chocolate-colored eyes of African children. I think I've spoken to every adoption agency working in every country in Africa in the past month. I've even begun to ponder boy names that start with the letter "A". Someone please shake me back into reality!

Our biggest (and only) obstacle continues to be finances. First the ones we need to clear, and then the ones we need to gather for another adoption. Do I feel God will provide? Absolutely! NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH GOD! "But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible." - Matthew 19:26

But why is He taking so long? Where is it going to come from? How is He going to arrange this? I don't know, but I do know that I'm ready, Lord!! Scott's ready (although not nearly as anxious as I am)! There are a couple of things looking good for us right now, but they are not happening at warp speed.

Tonight after watching American Idol with Scott, I turned to him and said, "What about club feet?" He looked at me as if I had asked him if he could see well out of his third eye! He said, "Huh?" I said, "What about club feet? Are we going to request a healthy child or are we again going for special needs? And if we are adopting a special needs child, what do you think about club feet?" He burst out in laughter (which he knows pisses me off!!!) and said, "We're gonna pay off all our bills first." Men! (Yes, Aus...feel free to comment. I'd love to hear from probably my only male reader. :)

I then stomped off in my childish manner muttering under my breath that club feet is fine with me and that he could laugh all he wants but that I was going to find a way to pay off all our bills and that he should expect our social worker to jump out of his stocking at Christmas time waving a homestudy at him! I could still hear him laughing as I walked down the hall.

So, that's where I'm at tonight. Praying that God somehow make that miracle happen.
He's already done the hard part, convincing Scott. Coming up with money to pay off our last adoption debt, should be a breeze for Him! Please keep my overzealous enthusiasm in your prayers, while at the same time asking the Lord to, if at all possible, come up with something quick so that we can get started on bringing home another little guy before I lose my sanity!

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Mom of 5 said...

Prayers for patience. Still...way..too...exciting !

Charlotte said...

Ohilda ~

Have you looked at WACAP's promise child program ?

If you are willing to adopt a child with very specific requirements like age and sn, they pay ALL of the adoption ! You pay for homestudy, immigration and travel !

Charlotte and crew

The Ferrill's said...

Ohilda I know just how you feel...We get the vision and then we have to wait on His timing for it to all pan out in His way!
I'm reminded of Habakkuk 2:2,3 "Write down the revelation and make it plain on tablets so that a herald may run with it. For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay."
You have done exactly this, Ohilda! You wrote the revelation God gave you down, and oh how sweet a writing it is! Now we all wait with you for God to say "When"!!!!
I can't wait and am so excited for you! ;)

mommy24treasures said...

I just know it will all work out perfectly. Praying...

Kelly said...

Patience is just so hard! Erin has been home over 2 years and just turned 3 in March. I am feeling the little nudge to start the plan to adopt again. I just have so many doubts about it right now that I know I need more time. The changes in the WC program have really put a damper on my ideas of how it would all take place. I would love to bring home a 3 year old when Erin is 5 but that is were the patience comes in. :o)

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