Blessed!

First, I have to say that I am humbled and so incredibly blessed to have so many people praying for my baby girl. Wow! You guys amaze me!

We arrived at the hotel room at about 9 pm tonight. I gave Anna Grace a quick bath and we took some pictures as we scrubbed her hand and arm with the little brush filled with Betadine that the hospital had given me on our last visit. I then put her in new PJs and handed her a sweet little stuffed cow that her Grandma up north had sent her as a buddy to be with her during her stay here.

After tucking her in, I turned on the computer to see if I had any mail and there were 29 emails! All of them filled with prayers and well wishes for my baby girl. I sat here bawling as I read each one. God is so good! He sends you what you need, exactly when you need it.

You see, driving here with Anna Grace asleep in her carseat (Scott followed in a separate car behind us since he's leaving tomorrow night), I kept thinking about the elections tomorrow and all of the Obama hype going on. I began to get so depressed and truly sad. It wasn't because of our country. It wasn't because of our future. It wasn't because of all that is at stake with these elections. This time it was because I realized how much the world has rejected our God, and how evident it has become during these elections. My heart ached with every thought of Him nailed to that cross, being humiliated, spat on, in pain and suffering. And when I think about why He was on that cross in the first place, it breaks my heart. He did it for us. For you and for me. And His people, His world that He created, is truly falling apart with immorality, selfishness, power, greed, and people actually mocking the one, true God. I don't understand it. Yet, the words that kept coming to mind were "Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do."

I read a couple of days ago about the boy who dressed as Jesus Christ for his Halloween parade at school and was sent home because it was too offensive to other students. WHAT?!! Offensive? Jesus is the image of pure love, humility and kindness. Kids could go to school dressed as Bin Laden and that's OK? But Jesus is offensive? Again, I don't understand. What kind of world are we living in? What are we teaching our children?

I have totally run off course here (as usual) and I apologize. What I was initially setting off to say was that as I drove and my thoughts wandered to all of the above, I felt deflated. I felt I had lost a battle. That was until I opened up my email a few minutes ago and saw how many people are praying for my sweet girl. You've brought tears to my eyes and I truly love the Jesus in each and every one of you. You ARE God's hands. You have His heart and His light and it shines. It shines bright as the sun! Thank you. You have renewed my faith in what seems to be a very dark world. You have shown me that God lives in each and every one of us and when we reach out to others, even if we think we're just doing a simple "nice gesture", we don't know what a difference we are making in someone's day. YOU have made a huge difference. You have reminded me that I am here to serve Him and that He is in control. Thank you!

My baby girl is now curled up next to me as I type. I love to hear her breathing softly. Oh, how I pray that this is the beginning of the end of her attachment issues. My heart is telling me that we are almost there. I will spend the next two days alone with her, catering to her and giving her as much Mama love as I can muster. Thank you, Lord for my little blessing.

I will post from the hospital after the surgery tomorrow. Hopefully we will have internet access and it will be a lot faster than here, hence the reason for no pictures.

Thank you all for blessing me so much tonight.