"Once our eyes are opened, we cannot pretend we don't know what to do. God, who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls, knows that we know, and holds us responsible to act." Proverbs 24:12



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Monday, November 3, 2008

Blessed!

First, I have to say that I am humbled and so incredibly blessed to have so many people praying for my baby girl. Wow! You guys amaze me!

We arrived at the hotel room at about 9 pm tonight. I gave Anna Grace a quick bath and we took some pictures as we scrubbed her hand and arm with the little brush filled with Betadine that the hospital had given me on our last visit. I then put her in new PJs and handed her a sweet little stuffed cow that her Grandma up north had sent her as a buddy to be with her during her stay here.

After tucking her in, I turned on the computer to see if I had any mail and there were 29 emails! All of them filled with prayers and well wishes for my baby girl. I sat here bawling as I read each one. God is so good! He sends you what you need, exactly when you need it.

You see, driving here with Anna Grace asleep in her carseat (Scott followed in a separate car behind us since he's leaving tomorrow night), I kept thinking about the elections tomorrow and all of the Obama hype going on. I began to get so depressed and truly sad. It wasn't because of our country. It wasn't because of our future. It wasn't because of all that is at stake with these elections. This time it was because I realized how much the world has rejected our God, and how evident it has become during these elections. My heart ached with every thought of Him nailed to that cross, being humiliated, spat on, in pain and suffering. And when I think about why He was on that cross in the first place, it breaks my heart. He did it for us. For you and for me. And His people, His world that He created, is truly falling apart with immorality, selfishness, power, greed, and people actually mocking the one, true God. I don't understand it. Yet, the words that kept coming to mind were "Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do."

I read a couple of days ago about the boy who dressed as Jesus Christ for his Halloween parade at school and was sent home because it was too offensive to other students. WHAT?!! Offensive? Jesus is the image of pure love, humility and kindness. Kids could go to school dressed as Bin Laden and that's OK? But Jesus is offensive? Again, I don't understand. What kind of world are we living in? What are we teaching our children?

I have totally run off course here (as usual) and I apologize. What I was initially setting off to say was that as I drove and my thoughts wandered to all of the above, I felt deflated. I felt I had lost a battle. That was until I opened up my email a few minutes ago and saw how many people are praying for my sweet girl. You've brought tears to my eyes and I truly love the Jesus in each and every one of you. You ARE God's hands. You have His heart and His light and it shines. It shines bright as the sun! Thank you. You have renewed my faith in what seems to be a very dark world. You have shown me that God lives in each and every one of us and when we reach out to others, even if we think we're just doing a simple "nice gesture", we don't know what a difference we are making in someone's day. YOU have made a huge difference. You have reminded me that I am here to serve Him and that He is in control. Thank you!

My baby girl is now curled up next to me as I type. I love to hear her breathing softly. Oh, how I pray that this is the beginning of the end of her attachment issues. My heart is telling me that we are almost there. I will spend the next two days alone with her, catering to her and giving her as much Mama love as I can muster. Thank you, Lord for my little blessing.

I will post from the hospital after the surgery tomorrow. Hopefully we will have internet access and it will be a lot faster than here, hence the reason for no pictures.

Thank you all for blessing me so much tonight.

15 comments :

day by day said...

Hi Ohilda!

It is late and I am just now getting some computer time! First, I agree with your post wholeheartedly....I often have those same exact feelings. How must He feel with His children behaving in such a way? My heart is heavy with that thought.

I bet this one on one time with AG will be great for the bonding! I am praying for your sweet girl and for her wonderful Mama!

love and hugs,
Michelle

Waitingfaithfully said...

Praying for your sweet girl dear friend. May the Lord keep her safely under His wing tomorrow, and may the next couple of days draw the two of you nearer than ever to one another!

Heal quickly Anna Grace, under the shelter of the Most High!

Blessings from Texas~

Love,

Tina

Mom Of Many said...

It is such a wonderful kiss from Abba Father to see how many people care and are praying, isn't it? So truly humbling.

Praying and looking forward to a great report - and also praying that you have a great internet connection at the hospital....

Sleep well and may God's perfect peace comfort you and Anna Grace.....

geminirn said...

Praying all goes well during little Anna Grace's surgury and the Election of your Country.

HUGS FROM CANADA!

Aus said...

Hey - a couple thoughts - the good thing about the way our government works - it really doesn't matter who is president, there are enough checks in place to control them and keep them from doing too much harm - we've out lasted bad ones in the past (our lifetimes!). And I'm still hopeful - it just ain't over till the fat lady sings!

More importantly - prayers for you guys - the whole bunch of you. In many ways this will be easier for AG than for the rest of you. I held Braelyn for the blood test yesterday (melamine) and that was bad enough. OK - you got a tougher patch for the next while - but rely on anyone and everyone you need to take care of you and your clan. At the risk of speaking for all of us (and we know who we are) - we're happy to help any way we can!

Blessings on you - your family - and AG in particular!

hugs -

aus and family

The Princess's Mommy said...

Praying for you and your sweet baby girl! You are always in my thoughts.

Love you,
Monica

Keisha said...

I feel the same way too Ohilda. We just have to remember that it's ALL in God's hands! He is STILL in control, despite how bad it looks.
Praying for Anna Grace today!
Hugs!
Keisha

Carmen said...

Praying for Anna Grace and your bonding time.


Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:26-28

Anonymous said...

Ohilda,

We are praying for sweet Anna Grace today and always.

Praying for God's hand to be on her, the surgeon, and you and Scott.

jeanette

Jill W said...

Praying for Anna Grace & your family that all goes well and a speedy recovery follows.

Carol said...

Ohilda,
If only you could see yourself through others eyes! You are an amazing mom, and an amazing person. I am praying for your little blessing. Hope all goes well!
Carol

Lisa said...

Anxiously awaiting a good report because our God is so Good and Loves us so much. The song on your playlist has ministered to me so much, lite a candle.... I hope each day I can be God's Hands extended in this world. A patient of mine told me last night she wanted to be admitted because she did not want to live and she did not want to kill herself. I shared Jesus with her, I only hope she speaks to Him.. I can only plant the seed and pray God will bring on the increase. Much love and prayers to you... you are in my thoughts. Give hugs to Anna Grace for me.

Sara said...

Keeping your little Anna Grace in my thoughts and prayers.

Suzy said...

Aren't you glad God is God and big enough to handle everything? I'm clinging to that so that I can feel His peace right now. He's in charge, and none of this is a surprise to him. He loved us enough to send His son knowing that we'd come to this day.

He's an awesome God, He lives, and He loves us. Especially little Anna Grace! So hang in there, Ohilda. He'll never leave us nor forsake us.

Jewels of My Heart said...

What a blessing it is to have found you my sister in Christ Jesus...... your words mirror my heart.
I am praying for our country and for our great Nation.
God's peace,
Daleea

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