wishing for frozen water

I saw this cartoon quite a while back on a friend's site and immediately thought, "That's me!" Oh, how I wish it weren't, but sadly, it is.

I know it's been way too long since I posted about the goings-on here, but there's been lots of changes around here that have pulled me away. I'm back!

'Nuff rambling.

Let me tell you why I mentioned in the previous post that I am walking completely and blindly by faith.

I'm just gonna blurt it out. ::deep breaths:: Just gonna go out and say it!

Ok. Here goes.

Sweet hubby quit his job to go into business on his own.

Whew! There I said it! It's even scary to read in words. Yes, in this economy. He quit his job.

This is something that he's been wanting to do for a very, very long time. Scott is one of the hardest working men I know. God opened a huge door for him to step through. He prayed about it and now, we're on the other side of the door!

It's scary on this side of the door.

I have to admit that this is something I prayed very little about. Yes. You read that correctly. Very. Little.

You may remember my writing about God calling me to be a more submissive wife. This is something I continuously am challenged by, although to my credit, I must say I have moved forward in the "stepping back" department. I absolutely share my feelings and thoughts, but have definitely allowed Scott to solely decide what he feels is best for our family. My only request is that he pray about it. I know he does. I trust and love my husband. I trust and love God even more. But I waiver, about both, at times. (I think that's the human side of me.)

So, while God may have opened what appears to be some financial freedom for us, which we've desperately needed since adopting 3 children in 2 years, I think "the bigger door" was opened for me to walk through.

This decision was of gigantic proportions in my book, being that I'm the financial consultant in our home. Yet, I know God's decision of granting what I have been asking of Him for so long, to make me more like the virtuous woman in Proverbs 31, instead of what today's society believes a wife/woman should be, is even bigger than not having that steady-we-know-it's-coming-weekly income. I have to believe that these doors were opened because the sovereign and omnipotent God we serve has big plans for us.

I feel like we are walking in the darkest of nights with no moon out. But although there are moments where I am overshadowed by doubt and discouragement, I know that He upholds me with His powerful hand as He leads me, leads us, one step at a time. I just have to continue to let "thy word be a lamp unto my feet and a light unto thy path." - Psalm 119:105

If we come to mind during your day, could you please stop a moment and say a quick prayer for Scott's new business endeavor? Also, could you throw in another quick little prayer for me that I continue to remain obedient to what the Lord wants from me.

One last thought. Boy, how I wish the river was frozen solid when we stepped out of the boat!

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:5-6

UPDATE: For those of you that don't read the comments, Scott responded to my post. I thought you might be interested in reading his thoughts on this.

The Husband!! has left a new comment on your post "wishing for frozen water":

"It's the husband everyone! How are you?? I'm excited! And my wife is sooooooo nervous! I think after reading my wife's post I would say to her, "Relax, honey, It's under control." And it is... just not my control. the Lord brought this to me at a time where there was doors closing for us to make ends meet. This is my God at work, He has ALWAYS been there for us and always will, because He is a loving God. His POWER has touched my entire family by showing us a new way to praise him ( our new church ), and a way to follow Him ( His new path for me ). Everything that comes my way is HIS works, not mine. I know this, which is why I have no FEAR for our future. It is acually BRILLIANT what He has done for us.

But just so you all know, I would NEVER ask for you not to worry and don't pray for this to become a success. Please pray for us, for me to have the strength and dedication to become stronger in my faith, and in my new business. And of course, for my wife not to have a nervous breakdown! :) Seriously, please pray for her also so that she can be strong in our future, to be strong as a mother and as my wife. She has come a long way, and has done so much for this family. Now its my turn, and with God leading the way, I can't fail!!

Thanks everyone!

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